So I decided to download the Chapter One of Phase One of The Ultimate Journey where Jen Jen is apparently at for a few days for “intensive therapy” and I got to the section titled “What about my Numb-Out techniques?” and if this wasn’t written for Jen, I don’t know what was. I’ve taken a few excerpts from the lesson and I’ll include them below, along with a link at the bottom of the post. Some of these hit the nail on the head for Jen.
What about my Numb-Out techniques?
People who suffer from deep soul wounds that are still raw and open live in constant pain, stress, fear, anger, and shame. That creates all sorts of inner, trapped emotional voltage that makes it hard to focus, concentrate, and function in society – being married, having a family, working etc… Thus, in order to find relief, they tend to find and use various “painkillers.”
…I think we all know what one of her “painkillers” are… and that would be money.
You feel compelled to do something to try to make up for how incomplete and not good enough you really feel and believe yourself to be. One way is by trying to feel good enough through performance. For example, by achieving titles, positions, financial success, engaging in noble, socially applauded careers, crusades, and endeavors to help the less fortunate. In addition, you may seek out super spiritual relationships with God or with wonderful, notable people, in hopes that by association your value or significance will increase and that will help you numb your shameful feelings of not being good enough.
…DING DING DING!!! Performance with Xyng… jumping to the top right away, she didn’t care who she trampled over in the process. As long as she could get herself to the top, that’s all that mattered. Or, what about GHNI… she wanted to look like the savior and the one who helps the less fortunate… and all the charities that she supposedly donated to, and ministries and blah blah blah.
Moreover, you may have resorted to taking substances such as food, alcohol, or drugs to alter your chemistry and manipulate your mood and emotional climate. These activities and substances give you the sensation that when you numb the pain, it ceases to exist, but that is not true. These painkillers do not work because they do not really address the root of the problem anymore than watching lots of TV will fix your leaky roof. Their effect soon wears off. The pain, emptiness, fear, and shame return so you need another “fix” and then another, and another. In time, you become totally dependent on these things, addicted, compulsively pursuing and being enslaved by them.
Ha! If that isn’t true, I don’t know what is. Especially the part, “The pain, emptiness, fear, and shame return so you need another “fix” and then another, and another. In time, you become totally dependent on these things, addicted, compulsively pursuing and being enslaved by them.”
Those who are under this delusion are like a primitive man with a mouth full of decayed teeth. The pain is excruciating but he has lived in the bush all his life and knows nothing about dentistry. Therefore, to deal with his pain, he gets certain potions concoctions from a witch doctor. They help him fool his brain by numbing and disconnecting certain portions of it to the extent that he feels euphoric as long as he is under their influence. Later he moves to a city and finds out about dentistry and what it does, but it never occurs to him to see himself as a dental patient. Why should he? He does not think he has a problem. He feels fine – as long as he keeps using the potions the witch doctor gave him. In that case, you would never convince a man who “feels no pain” to go to the dentist. Not as long as he can fool his own brain and force it to be convinced that not being able to feel what you feel is the same thing as being healthy and feeling fine.
This paragraph speaks for itself.
However, if he should finally run out of the witch doctor’s elixir, reality will begin to catch up with him until there is no more avoiding or escaping it. His brain will begin to reconnect and start to let him know how he really feels and what is really going on within him. This new found freedom to start feeling again may not be very pleasant, but it is the best motivation for him to reconsider the possibilities of dentistry – for himself. In that case, the pain will be intense but it will be temporary, and his teeth will have a chance of being saved instead of totally rotting and falling out of his head!
The well is running dry Jen Jen…
Without any painkiller to numb out with, he won’t wait very long before he is pounding at the door of the nearest dentist begging for help. Without the mind-numbing distraction of a pain-killer, he enters the perfect frame of mind for effective care, healing and resolution – absolutely ready and willing to do whatever it takes to get some proper, thorough, effective help, once and for all.
For the sake of her kids and family and general well-being, she needs this… something, anything needs to sink in, before she destructs even more of her life. She needs to deal with her problems, they’re not going to go away on their own. There is no magic potion to life, we all wish for that sometimes! Life is all about learning from our mistakes and moving on, in the right direction. WAKE UP JENNIFER!
**Link to download Phase 1 Chapter 1: http://www.theultimatejourney.org/new-to-journey/more-about-phase-1/phase-1-themes/
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